[Mods, I have written with my heart and soul. Please, let this through and, perhaps, my cracking heart can rest.
At the heart, to whomever you believe in, in the soul, to whomever you love, let yourself be blessed.
This post contains my heart, and deeper down, my soul. If it doesn't go through, then ends become beginning, facts become opinions, and all truth becomes false.]
Forget what I said before. I have something much better to say.
1.) Well, it's almost everything. Roleplaying, talking to friends, GvE, and so on. But it's not exactly an action that lights up my heart, but, rather, whom I see here and am with when I'm on these forums -- friends.
2.) The things I want to say are beyond myself, but I can manage to put it into words.
I want Crimson unbanned. I'm not a forumer who knows him that well, but I stalk him see the things that he's said, and I want to be able to see more of that. But . . . seventeen more days until I can? I know it seems short to you, thinking that you're doing the right thing, but it's millennia for me. For us. Unban him. Please.
I don't mean an ultimacy of offense, but you aren't doing the right thing. You're removing our friends, some of them permanently. Even if we can see them elsewhere . . . not everyone can. I haven't seen Crimson in eleven days. The only place I'm aware of his being is the GvE Wiki, and I don't even go on there.
Moderators, administrators . . . we're not robots. We're not AIs. We have feelings. Look beyond our usernames -- heck, look at our signatures for once! Many of us despise our usernames after having them for such a long time.
Ban the trolls, not innocent forumers, like Crimson. Maybe he's a bit more violent than the rest of us. Maybe he's a little more . . . matured than the rest of us.
But he's important to us. He's our friend. Bring him back. Seventeen days is heartbreaking for me, and for every other forum friend of his. I love my friends, even the more distant ones. But you probably don't know what that means. What am I talking about? The word "love."
Don't just look up the definition. A dictionary can never define "love," nor can it define "friendship" or "depression." Love is beyond even my own words, but, if I can take a small bit of it, I can manage.
In my world, love means care. Love means a straining in the heart that is hard to rid yourself of. A little spark of hope, perhaps warm, but sometimes horribly paining.
So, in my world, I care dearly about my friends, especially my forum ones. I have, not a spark, but a burning flame of hope, and warmth floods my heart to see them.
If I could find the sheet of paper that I wrote upon, which gave the definition of love, I would type it up on here, even if it meant it would take months, even if it meant I were dropped into an endless pit of trouble. Even if it meant my own death.
But, I still have other words to speak, so I must move on.
Crimson is one of my best friends, in my opinion. No matter if he considers me a best friend in return, I still think that, on my side. Crimson belongs on the forums, and I fear he may never return with such a long ban.
Have you ever noticed, moderators and administrators, that if you ban a forumer for a long period of time, sometimes, they never return? Have you ever noticed that if you permanently ban a forumer, sometimes they end up being online all day, every day, watching, then suddenly, they stop?
It isn't because of school. It isn't because of bad memory. It isn't because of "my best friends don't matter anymore."
It's because of depression. Death. Suicide.
Believe it or not, but you may have caused the death of an innocent just because you banned them for a long time, or permanently banned them. For some people, this is their only social media site that they go on. If they're banned permanently, they have near no way of contacting their friends.
And, sometimes, death works its way to a non-banned forumer. Why? They get depressed, knowing they may never speak to their permanently banned friend again. Then, they get so depressed, they . . . you know already.
Then there's the times when you tell people who are depressed or whatever to talk to someone in real life. But there's something you don't realize that applies to many of them.
There are people in the world with parents who practically hate them -- siblings and "friends," too. Instead of help them through their depression, they'll tease them, beat them up, yell at them, and just make things worse.
Take this scenario here:
Moderator: Please, [insert forumer username], talk to your parents or someone you trust in real life. They can help.
Forumer: *everyone she knows in real life practically hate her* *goes to tell her supposed "friend" anyways*
Friend: *makes fun of [insert forumer nickname]*
Forumer: *to moderator* My friend just made everything worse. This won't work.
Moderator: Go talk to your parents, then.
Forumer: *talks to parents*
Parents: *yell at her and interrupt her and such*
Forumer: *gets so depressed she eventually commits suicide*
That's something that can happen in real life -- it's not a fantasy scenario. You're making things worse for people. There are countless trolls out there that are running wild. Ban them. Nobody else.
Even if someone starts a flame war, or uses violent language, or something like that, that person is most likely innocent. Fire always dies out, someday, sometime. Let them come up with their own solution. Don't ban them. Our heartbrokenness only increases.
I want to see Crimson again. As I've said, time and time again, he is my friend. More than almost anything in the world, I want him back. Please, unban him. He's innocent, no matter what you think.
Innocence is not pure -- it has devilish things here and there, but it would not be innocence if it were followed by a load of rottenness. Crimson barely has a hint of rottenness, though his innocence is tainted with mischief.
Crimson's innocence is plenty great for him to go unbanned, but you don't seem to realize that.
Though I've said this once already, I will say again that I feel Crimson is one of my best friends. I won't be able to go seventeen days more without Crimson -- at least not without losing another few pieces of my heart.
More than anything else, I wish you would unban Crimson, and realize we're more than an icon and username.