basically everything Hydra said in that post ^^
Puppy why are you so nice and amazing and why and how did you manage to make this thread right when I needed it most
I don't know, just *sighs* okay so I get these mood swings where I become an Angsty Emo Trash Hormonal Teenager (come on guys we all do)
I try not to interact with people during those mood swings because:
A) I'll probably say/do something I'll regret later
B) nobody wants to hang out with angsty trash who's angry at the world
C) I don't feel like it because ew people
Lucky for you guys I usually don't feel like foruming during that time either, which is why a bunch of you were surprised by that one sad emotional trash thread I made a while back that I'm too lazy to find the link for
Anyway basically what I said in that thread was "pray for me, my life has officially lost all meaning *insert ranty thing about how I feel like I'm on the edge of depression at times and I hate school and people and the world and life and nothing makes me happy during these mood swings that have been getting more and more common*"
So I was okay for a while after that post (everyone was so nice and encouraging, thanks guys)
But, alas, I've relapsed
For those of you who did see the original thread- literally all of that again
For those of you who didn't- basically the human race is a disappointment, I'm melancholy for no reason, I wish more irl people liked me, I wish I was pretty and popular and cool, I wish everyone was nicer, my artistic inspiration has entirely abandoned me, many things never seem to work out for me AND my grandmother is visiting Sunday and I need to clean my room but I literally don't have the will to get up from my beanbag chair and do it.
So yeah you could say I've lost the will to live.
I haven't lost the will to be alive and breathing, more like I've lost the will to do anything BUT exist, breathe, fulfill basic hygene and health needs, and read/text/forum occasionally
I just need a hug
And I want my life back
I used to be so happy and I want to be that way again
To be joyful because of something simple like a sunset, a puppy, or a flower
To search my mind for ideas and actually find something worthwile
To do something useful with my life
To at least do more than just sit here and waste hours
A hug would be good too