Hey man, I (oof, desperately) know how you feel.
The forums of course are very accepting but I didn’t always mix easily with the crowd, and selfishly almost, turned bitter out of a perceived neglect. The reason I say “perceived” here is because there really are people here who listen, they’re just hard to find some times. And this was so petty of me but, I used to get so upset about not having enough stars. (I find myself glancing at my star count often, still.) They were irreplaceable badges, my validation. They were the only proof anyone payed attention to me. Of course that isn’t true, because your worth goes beyond that in a deeper way. (And when I realized this I go at salty about not having close friends! What a pathetic and needy wretch I am... anyway!)
The reason I come back time after time is because I can be myself. It’s the most valuable part of myself and these forums— in that the people can stand who I am, and accept me even. It takes a few tries maybe, but good relationships require a bit of effort on both sides. So, keep trying if you can stand it. It gets crazy lonely, and futile almost. Maybe... take comfort in the fact that you’re not the only one who struggles sometimes. Take a break if you really need one though of course!
That being said, you will always always have a place here. Never forget that.