I don't know how to write nor do I have any clue what I'm doing but I think about Akechi sitting in Leblanc a lot
If there was one thing he enjoyed, it was sameness. Like the same little café he always went to, in the same seat, ordering the same drink. And that one same man behind that one same counter that never said a word.
He liked that. Talking all day and night, day in and day out, was tiring. Keeping up with constant social cues and bland meetings and long days of nothing important (no matter how important the office insisted they were) was draining. The quietness of the man behind the counter, no matter how cold it seemed, was more welcoming than strained pleasantries with no real meaning.
Sameness was comfortable, though. He always knew what to expect, how to act, how to not break down in front of everyone and expose all his secrets and ruin his carefully crafted plans. Even if that sameness was soul-crushing work day after day with no break in the monotony, it was familiar.
But there was one piece of sameness he hated. That stupid boy with his stupid glasses and his strange stupid habit of carrying a cat wherever he went. That one same boy who would come and talk to him without fail every single time they crossed paths in the café. That one same boy who was the only person to treat him with some basic human decency and that made him want to stop everything he was doing and give up his plans he’d spent much too much time cultivating to simply let go of now.
He hated that boy and his quiet smile and his strange way of words and actions that always seemed so heartfelt even though he had his doubts on if they actually were and maybe he was actually just putting on an act to pry out more information that he knew he’d gladly give. He hated the feeling of his mind churning too quickly to grasp a coherent thought at every little act of kindness because who knows when someone is going to try getting close to him and sabotage him and what if someone was already doing that how far had he let himself fall?
Sometimes, Akechi really hated sameness.